Am I bad, or am I mad?
For Blaise D'Souza, this was not a philosophical question; it was a decades-long war waged within his own mind and soul. Torn between the psych ward and the prayer group, between a diagnosis of Bipolar II and Cluster B personality disorders and the terrifying belief that his sins had opened the door to demonic activity, he was a man drowning in a sea of contradiction.
Following his short memoir Let them know I love them, D'Souza now tells his complete story. No Madness No Badness is the raw, unflinching testimony of his war: the story of a boy who endured trauma in a chaotic home, a teenager who built a fortress of recklessness to survive, and a man whose frantic search for a cure led him from Catholic charismatic retreats to the brink of suicide, from a prestigious PhD program in America to the depths of addiction on the streets of Mumbai.
This is not a self-help book with easy answers. It is a vulnerable journey to the heart of life's most painful questions about faith, mental illness, and personal responsibility. It is a story about hitting rock bottom and finding grace in the most unexpected of places.
No Madness No Badness is a testament to a love that refuses to condemn, a love that meets us in the middle of our most confusing struggles. It is a book of profound hope for anyone who has ever felt torn apart, lost in the gray area between madness and badness, and yearned for a single, coherent truth that could save their life and their soul.