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Siva Prakasam Pillai is a sincere truth seeker and he met Bhagawan at a very young age and he has an association with such a great soul for more than 50 years.Because of him we all got the book “Who am I” narrated by Bhagawan to him.All through his life his only quest is for truth and he is amply rewarded by enlightenment.Let us all be greatful to him.
Energy dynamics in Self-Enquiry:
The mind has a tendency to move,it is in continuous movement,so
there is momentum.Suddenly mind has impulse to do something and in
"who am i" Self-Enquiry, the movement of impulse is stopped suddenly
due to awareness and now a gap come into existence between the centre of
awareness and the body-mind complex and you feel your body-mind
complex as something distant,you become separate from it.Whenever
you are in activity,you are deeply absorbed in it.Sudden stoppage of
mental activity in "who am i"enquiry throws you out of mental activity.
This being thrown leads us to the awareness of our being.Ordinarily we
move from one activity to another continuously without gap in between.
This habit is broken in "who am i" enquiry and a gap come into existence.
When there is a feeling an impulse to do something,stop without the
thought coming into picture.Miracles happen because in activity when you
stop,a gap happens.You will be totally taken away from the body-mind and
realm of activity.Energy is always in a movement,either going out or coming
in.Energy can never be static.Impulse of thought means energy is
moving out.All activities are movements towards that which is without,from
that which is within i.e movements from within to without.That movement
happens according to the direction given by the innate tendencies.When
the movement is stopped suddenly in "who am i" Self-Enquiry,the energy
cannot do anything other than moving inward.Even though thought stops,
the mechanism which can lead you towards the centre of awareness is there.
You are converting your energy and changing it's dimension every moment
in "who am i" Self-Enquiry in which the energy of awareness falls back into
If one is angry or violent,energy has been aroused and it
has come to a point where it wants to be expressed and that energy needs
movement.If at that time,you start loving somebody,the same energy will
move into love.So the energy of love and hate are one,the energy of
passion and compassion are one.The energy of anger,violence,peace are
one and the same.Only with real impulse does energy move.Anger is pure
energy.It can become bad if it goes out and destroy something or it may
become bliss if it moves within and throws you to the centre of awareness
of your being.It is like atomic energy in the atom,pure,innocent,neutral.
It can be used for destructive purposes like throwing bombs on Hiroshima
and Nagasaki killing millions of innocent people or it can used to produce
enormous electric power.It all depends on us.If one feels that anger is
bad,so i should stop,the energy moves into that mental consideration,
in which case also the energy moves from the inner to the outer.
So mental suppression does not change the dimension of energy.
If you start thinking about the centre of awareness,then also the energy
will move from the inner into thinking which is outer to the Self.
You can waste this inner energy very simply.Just a thought will be enough
to give it a direction thus limiting it.If thought process really stops during
Self-Enquiry,the centre of awareness of being explodes which is called
implosion.Mystics always live in that uninterrupted implosive state of being.